I share this only for those who need a "light at the end of the tunnel" moment.  Before my awakening, I was victim to every story below. They owned me. I led with "my story" foot. Now, in all honesty, I barely remember them. The higher my consciousness, the more distant they become. When I am in purely 3D reality, I can remember details. When I am in 5D (or higher), I can't even hardly tap in at all. It's like watching a filmstrip now. It is no longer my reality, but part of the illusion we call "life".   
In THIS physical lifetime, I was:

Molested, beaten, spent my teenage years visiting a step-parent in prison, abused, lied to, betrayed, on the street at 15, didn't know who my "dad" was, in love with a hitch hiker at 17, married repeatedly, an alcoholic, workaholic, smoker, anorexic, broke, every other addiction (aholic), pregnant & alone, became obese, had every odd & excessive health problems, agoraphobic, sensitive, saw dead people, almost died several times and those are only the "highlights" that I can recall quickly.  

I also excelled at absolutely everything with ease. I never had to study in school, had amazing artistic abilities, understood & knew things others didn't, won everything I ever competed in (poetry, creative writing, speech contests, journalism). I was bused to a special school for exceptionally talented students, graduated with honors, while never stepping foot on campus my last year of high school, promoted in every job to management/supervisor over all my peers with more "experience" and seniority, was always a guide, a teacher, advisor to those I met/worked with. I helped everyone I met.  I've loved with the depths of my soul  (in the oddest exchanges).

Then I woke up ... I forgave, understood, learned, healed.  I found myself and beyond. I became one with everything that is.  These experiences are not me. They are stories; tools to heal and learn. It is not what we have experienced, but what we do with what we experienced.  I can say "I understand" because I have experienced it. It takes that to truly help another with transcending these physical worlds.  It takes moving to a higher state of consciousness to understand that none of this matters at all. It just "IS". 

My past (there is no past), so other dimensional lives, are just now surfacing. Those are new amazing stories to add to my stockpile as I continue to remember.

Now I help others ... it IS what we do.

Lightworkers
We choose the most extreme experiences for a reason
There IS a purpose
Believe & Trust in Love

I ask the hard questions. Not to hurt another. Not with judgement, but with love. I ask to help them release the hurt, the pain, the guilt, the anguish, the fear, being prisoner or victim to their own thoughts. I provide an atmosphere of comfort, ease and authenticity. No judgement; no games. Just real. 

In part of the work I do, helping others, most of the time I "feel" or "know" what is going on with a person when they don't. Even when they think they do. Even that is much of the time "off". Why? Several reasons. One is, I just do. Sometimes it is in the words they speak or their mannerisms, or higher guidance just plain tells me. Another is that they are too close to it. They are "in" it. And when one is in it, unless they are able to step back from their own experience to become an observer instead of a participator, they can't see clearly. I can. I can even do this with my own stuff. I can detach. Being involved is not an option when accessing information objectively. It takes being an observer to see things clearly; to be able to discern the "messages" we receive as something more than our ego or just a passing thought.

The question is only hard if the person's ego is stronger than their willingness to let go. If they are ready, then they will stop and go "wow" and a flood gate of information will start to come through. Then it is time to sit back and let them "realize" how much pain and anguish they have create for themselves.  I continue to guide, where needed, with ease & kindness. Once one also "sees" the simplicty, they are amazed at how hard we all make things on ourselves. I understand this, as part of the WE that does it too! 

Emotional pain is a response to a thought.  Period. So who is thinking the thought? Who is in that head causing all of that pain? Once one realizes that these are their thoughts, their perceptions, their self-created fears, worries or traumas, then they can consciously choose to let go. Be free.  

There is absolutely no thought that we can't let go of, IF we choose to.

Not good enough? Says who? So what if someone else thinks that, it is their own thought that they are projecting on you. Your thought is your thought. Period.

I need to be perfect. Really? And by who's idea, what is perfect? Who sets the standard? Where is that rule or that process? In the head. Again.

One cannot argue that the thoughts we have are learned. Learned thoughts are someone else's thoughts ingrained into us as we grow up. And if not positive or productive, then they are normally dysfunctional in some way, promoting fear, distrust, lack and more. So if that is the case, we have taken those dysfunctional thoughts on as our own. Now is that something you want to live by? Do you trust those that put those thoughts into your head more than you do your own heart? And what's to stop you from just saying "I don't like this thought?". It no longer serves me. I'd like to think that I am good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, whatever... because even "enough" is a standard set by others or ourselves. Decide that what you have/do is always enough. Release yourself from expectation. BE enough, because you are enough. It is your thought. Choose one that makes you happy!

In kindness and love.

Wow, another realization. 

In talking with a friend a bit ago, she asked me "So would it hurt you to never see _________ again? (She was referring to someone near & dear to me, that I love more than ever.) And without hesitation I said "No. I understand, from a higher consciousness level, that my purpose here is much bigger than that. That the physical level stuff is so small in comparison; my soul is here for a specific reason, which no longer serves the physical realm needs. Besides, we all have contracts to fulfill, so anything ending is the fulfillment of a contract between two souls."

Then I got to thinking, wow. I no longer feel the need to accommodate anything physical. Not that I would not absolutely LOVE to share with someone who would love to share this experience with me on the same level of healing the world, but it is not something I seek. I don't seek things anymore. I'd like a roof over my head and a place/way to do what I do to help others, but my needs are so minimal now. My needs are now only to sustain and to be in-service. Everything else is just a plus.

Do I love laughter, beaches, dancing, nature... yes I sure do. But I don't NEED them to function anymore.  We can find simple things to feed our spirit. (nature, laughter, sunshine, etc.) Most "things" are distractions at this point as I spend 24/7 helping/healing others. I breathe love and healing.  I have such inner peace.

Amazing!

I channel much of the time in the shower, of all places. (of course) and there is no way to write, so I have to carry notepad with me & jump out when the flow goes.

I get all kinds of "odd" stuff. Directions, instructions, things I am to do, accomplish, names for businesses, domains for websites, purposes, things I am to watch for, people to contact, roles... you name it, it comes through whenever it decides to.

When I channel, there is no question of what I get. It all makes sense, perfectly. I don't remember it later, much, just blips, so I auto-write in scribble and then try to go back and decipher what came through.

Anyways, I was "told" to contact or watch for anyone represented by the infinity symbol and that I was to use/do the same. So that is what I am starting to do. I put the symbol up on my FB page immediately after and forgot about it. So now, everytime I see this, I have to go "see" what I am supposed to see. Sometimes I see it, sometimes I don't. I still go with it, because I trust, without question.

Oh, p.s. I found that I had been drawing this since I could write as my "symbol" and never understood that until I "looked" at what I had been drawing. Funny is, I met a girl I have been mentoring for months and she & I draw the same "version" of this.... so many odd & cool things coming to light. :) She and I also have the same "vision" everytime we come to a set of stairs. We "accidentally" spoke about it at same time one night!

In kindness & love, 

Lisa 

So, more puzzle pieces coming together. 

I have been getting "visits" in my sleep from elders. Different ones. At first, I just "noted" them for myself. As I continue to gather information, I also continue to put the pieces together.

Few months ago, visit from a really old Asian/Oriental man. He was walking in front of me, leading me. He had one hand out for me to "take his hand" and was saying "I will show you to heal across dimensions. It is very simple. I will give you every step. All you have to do is listen." Then I woke up. It was an "experience", not a dream. I have had these before. 

About a month ago, maybe, I had an old ancient Indian woman come to me in my sleep. She said to "stop looking for the Akashic Records, as I was standing in them." Something to the affect of all of the soul pain surfacing was all part of it & allowing it to come up & release was all part of it. I don't know. Then she was gone.

Fast forward to a couple weeks ago, I was working on a soul sister to help her raise vibration, clear out tons of energetic blocks, balance chakras, do an attunement, raise her kundalini, you name it, we did it! Quadruple whammy of love!!! <3 While balancing/opening her 3rd eye (6th Chakra), she was looking at me & I started "shape-shifting" into numerous different "people". One was a young blonde woman, another was an ancient Indian woman, and elder as she called her. I realized these were all different dimensions of me, past lives, etc.  How cool!

Then, coversatation yesterday with a fellow Lightworker about these old elders that come in my sleep to "advise" me... he called them ancient ones. All higher versions of self, especially since we are all one and have access to absolutely everything! 

Much of the time our information comes in pieces, increments. Being patient and open to anything we "get" allows us to understand and see more as we do. So, I await the next puzzle pieces and know that when they are meant to "arrive" they will. The Universe is aware that I am ready!!!! 

In kindness & healing energies of love everyone,

Lisa 

There will be times. There will be times when things get low and harder than others. There will be times that the perfection seems to subside and the light we see seems to dim. There will be times when the happiness seems to not be as present and pain starts to set in. There will be times when all of these things occur and we start to question. 

But then, in the midst of the pain, we realize we can reach deep down inside and find that little spark of light. For it is that light that shines brighter and causes the pain to fade, the darkness to subside and allows the sunshine to rise and shine again. 

There will be times, but even those times are not as bad as before. As now we have a light that we can use to find our way back into the warmth of love. It allows us to embrace a breath and to close our eyes and remember why we are here. It is not about us anymore as an individual. We no longer exist as a our "self". We now have access to the consciousness of one. And knowing that, feeling that, there is no reason to ever feel alone again.

In a world of duality, there is good & bad, failure and success, right vs. wrong  and so on.  Polar opposites to absolutely everything.

Our belief system that is created in the physical world of expectation and duality, we learn to adhere to one perspective or thought system. In any given situation, we go "yes, I did it!" or "how could that happen to me?" or "I can't believe this person/they could do that to me" and so on & so on. We are taught to make everything personal. We are taught that we have to succeed in the eyes of others; that if we don't excel by others standards, including those who taught us, that we are not good enough.  When we are old enough to start thinking for ourselves, when our intellect starts to form (5-6-7-8-9 years old, depending on individual growth), we carry over those teachings as our own thought/belief systems. We then spend the rest of our "lives" thinking the same way. We even learn to become experts at carrying those belief systems on & fine-tuning them into our own ego-based belief system. WE then take those things and we go "I can do better than that!" I can "think" those things and even more dysfunctional thoughts of my own! From there "lack" is abundant in whatever area is applicable to any given situation. Some have money but lack love. Others have love but no money. There is always duality in the world of an ego/thought-based belief system.

In this time of awakening and ascension, for everyone I have run across, something pivotal has happened to create a "what, wait a minute...", scratch our head... "but there is something more going on" experience. Something opens our eyes to other possibilities, but then the confusion sets in about "what" exactly that is. We feel it, but we don't quite understand it. Then our minds get involved and try to dissect it.  Then the mind/heart duality experience starts on a whole new level than in the "past". In our previous state, we just ignored our intuition and our hearts much of the time. We gave into our thought processes because they just had to be right, as that is what we were told. How were we to think any differently? Confusion persists. The rest is a pathway that emerges, a new journey. A journey into beginning to merge dualities and trying to un-learn everything we have learned thus far. Death of the ego begins, which creates massive internal emotional suffering for many and minimally extreme discomfort for others, causes fears to run rampant,  control issues to exacerbate, the list is endless. Our deepest fears and painful memories start to surface. But even through all of that, we still know there is something else. It is that knowing that keeps us going, hanging on. It is that knowing that is our heart overriding our mind. That knowing is what we feel and now come  to understand and trust. 

For me, I always had a very strong sense of knowing. I just knew.  I knew things that others didn't. I don't think it was that I knew anymore than they did (although the ego would like to think that), but that I listened to it or trusted it more than many others. I knew things about people when I met them that others didn't "see" or desire to see. I knew "decisions." If there was a question, I knew the answer on how to do that. I didn't really question what I knew, I just knew. It was that knowing that gave me strength that others lacked in self. It was also that knowing that made me so "successful" in the business world and part of the reason why so many sought my advice on things. 

That sense of knowing doesn't come from the mind, the ego-based, reasoning mind. That mind actually creates the chaos that we allow to interfere with our sense of knowing. We know or feel our truth. It is just instant. But when we don't get the answer we like, our reasoning, intellectual, ego-based mind decides it knows better and starts the "scenario" process. It is this scenario process that creates our fears, our doubt, our dis-trust and our self-created mind chaos that carries over into everything we do. So it is imperative in this new journey of awakening and realization to start to be able to tell the difference so that we can move to a heart-based knowing that will remove the resistance and create a flow of ease. The resistance creates discomfort. The heart is comfortable with anything, as it understands the perfection in absolutely everything. In a heart-based world, we do not lack. Our focus shifts to one of caring, acceptance and gratitude. Judgement, blame, distrust starts to fall away. We start to create a new world of balance. One of faith, love, honesty, respect and compassion for ourselves and others. We start to understand, as we grow, that we are all one being, one consciousness, one energy. In that moment that we "see" or "feel" that, our world opens to one of light, ease and promise. The darkness we have known in the past starts to dissipate. We start to accept ourselves and others and with the proper guidance of those who have experienced such things before us, we open up to learn about this "new world" with wide eyes of wonder and appreciation. We then begin our journey of awakening and ascension and awareness, as now "life" is a choice that we choose with a new purpose. One the reasoning mind can't comprehend. 

I realized something this morning when I was walking the lake. Being happy & in love with being one with everything is the best way to get healthy!

So, comparison time at the moment. One day I was walking and looking at the ground. My thoughts were all in my past or in the future worrying. So I shifted my focus (literally). I started looking straight ahead or up into the sky, at the trees, at the people I was meeting to pass... and I realized that I can't be in the past or the future worrying if I am greeting everyone with a smile and a hello, if I am observing the trees, the nature life, looking at the sun or the sky & thanking the universe, being grateful. And my energy shifted to one of victim, sad, mind-thinking, to being present. So I am sure now when I walk that I pay attention to where my focus is when I walk.

Today I am observing and being in the moment. Every person that passes me running or from the other direction. How many people are looking at the ground "thinking" when they walk. How many people are killing themselves "trying" to lose weight. Then I picked up on thoughts of "I have to run and get this weight off" or "I am not happy with my body, I wish I were skinnier"... so many discouraging thoughts about why they were running. It was not a pleasant experience to feel, as even the anger in some because of their dislike or disappointment in self, their expectations of something they feel is "better". It was very eye-opening. I observed myself. I am walking at my leisurely pace, enjoying nature, smiling at strangers, focused on how I can feel my body being healthier. I was not punishing my body. I was appreciating every imperfection and how it made me me, perfectly. I was thankful for my restored health compared to last year, shoot, my entire physical lifetime so far. I was thrilled that I was able to enjoy another beautiful morning at the lake. As I smiled out of gratitude and appreciation, those around me kept running past me with feelings of ineptness, disgust, determination to "beat this thing" that they felt owned them. Whether it be poor health or additional weight or heavy thoughts... there was a common theme.

I could feel my health improving as I walked, because of the energy I was projecting and creating for myself. There was nothing for me to "beat" .... I already was what I wanted to be. And my body follows that! I treat it with respect and nourish it with raw/vegan foods, cut out fluoride, drink distilled/pH water, I walk in nature to be in gratitude, connect with the energy. I don't need to run to punish myself anymore. I enjoy the walk! 

Side note 1:
Who do you think was losing weight that will stay off?
One in happiness, gratitude, feeding the mind/body/spirit connection to be healthy/balanced and of the highest vibration of love for everything single thing as one?
Or the one running with thoughts of anger, disgust, disappointment, sadness... because those thoughts alone create a block or issue that has to be overcome & released in the future. What foods do you think those thought frequencies cause that person to eat or crave?
Low vibrational thoughts create our physical being. So do high vibrational feelings. 
I have dropped 50 lbs in 8 months just by being positive, feeding my spirit, releasing all the low-vibrational issues that caused my illnesses, diseases, problems. I now treat myself, my body with total respect and love, along with everyone & everything I interact with. Am I perfect? Nope. But I am in a totally perfect place!

Side note 2: 
I "accidentally" noticed that my gums are smaller, no swelling.... my massive vericose veins in my legs are all but GONE! I was shocked... they used to be so huge that I was scared they were going to just burst one day and I'd bleed to death. I remember thinking that. They took up a huge portion of my calf right below/behind my right knee. Now, they are basically almost gone! No swelling, just a basic discoloration in my skin. That is truly amazing!  

I will have to list all of the medical conditions that I have released one day, which are phenomenal alone. Maybe it will help another. I literally was on my deathbed last summer. I could not walk (tophi gout) and my body was completely toxic.  Today I am healthier than I have ever been without medical problems and never getting sick. When I do "feel" something creeping up, I now know the cause and can release it to be healthy! Truly truly truly amazing this world!

For some of you, you will think I am crazy. Totally fine. For others, you will totally get this and know tons more that I have yet to comprehend at this moment. For me, it is a way to document my experiences, so that I can learn to understand them and in turn help another who might benefit or experience similar/same things. So here we go!!! :)

I woke up in 3D world.... somewhat of a connection, but lotsa dreams stuff that allowed me to work through stuff I didn't even realize was there (awesome & a whole different post), brought me "down" into 3D upon awakening... I got my stuff and headed to the lake for my 2.5 mile walk and to "be" with nature... along the first mile... I felt a "shift" within and around me.... I "got" to stop and look between two trees, that there was a "portal" there... so I did... it was so amazing... I could "see" the shifts taking place... and I saw & felt a shift again and I immediately knew I had "switched". 

Now this is that part that I won't have words to explain completely what I experienced. I "know" it, but don't know how to explain it. I could see things differently. My vibration was much higher and I could notice the obvious difference. Even the ground moved away from me.  I immediately was "taken back" to like a year and half ago. I "remembered" the same experience, but I didn't understand it at the time.  I would have these "experiences" at night when I was in between waking/sleep state, or I would wake up at 3-4 am to have these experiences where I could "see" through things into other "dimensions". It was so weird. I would go "bonkers" at a poster on the wall that I could see all the way through into a portal. I could see depth that "wasn't there". It went on & on forever. I took pictures & videos on my phone trying to "capture" it, but of course no one else could see it. My "friends" thought I was hallucinating, and I allowed those thoughts to affect my belief in what I saw then, because I didn't know any better. Now I "get it". Wow!

I had one night I fell asleep on the couch and was "woken" up to "see" something. I looked above me and in the dark, like 4 feet above me was this exquisitely beautiful energy form floating over my entire body. It was much larger than me, and it just hovered. It was translucent, lined in shimmering gold and just perfectly beautiful. I felt peace & calm and just stared into the "face" of this beautiful energy, and it just hovered and look right back at me. This went on for a few minutes and I blinked and it was gone. It was not a dream, I was present. It was an experience. I just have yet to totally understand it, and know when I am meant to, I will.

When I "try" to see, I can't. Trying interferes. Removing the obstacles, the interference, being open to allow absolutely anything & everything and not discounting the things that seem crazy or don't make sense. Just make note, journal and store them away. They will come back around if they are meant to. 

I have been having these experiences forever, yet until today haven't remembered or understood.  It IS a time of remembering for us all.  In love <3

P.S. Anyone that has anything to add to this, please feel free. Sharing helps us all! Namaste'

Never in my wildest dreams could this rational mind comprehend the experiences taking place. And they are speeding up, becoming more frequent (in the realm of time in our minds), and more powerful.

It's not just one type either. It's on every level. Mind/body/soul. It is truly amazing to watch, participate in & experience.

First, all healing comes from Divine Source. There is no "me or I" in energetic/soul healing. It is a connection that can't be explained, only experienced by all involved.

Much of the time I am not even aware of what was said or what was done until after. It just happens. The only thing I do know is when I "tried" to heal, I could not. I was thinking too much. I was in "I" mode basically. "I" kept trying to do something. Not until I "connected" on an entirely different level, stepped outside myself to come to a place of oneness, to "tap in" to source did I get it. It wasn't about trying anything. It was about "allowing" everything. No expectation, no thought, no "thing"... just BEing in a place of unconditional love, compassion, kindness, gratitude and willingness to be absolutely "nothing" to help another to heal themselves. The only thing I (not from the I perspective at the moment) is to "get that person" to open up to allow it also. If guards are up, if there are expectations on their part, if they think to much, it creates a block. I have to get them to "feel". That can be the hardest part when the "I" ego is involved. So for that, I also go to source to help me help them "be" present, feel safe, feel ok to be ok with themselves. It is then that they can open to receive love & kindness for themselves, which is the first step to healing. One of the hardest thing for each of us, whether we know it or not, until we understand it on a whole new level.

As expediters, we tap into source to allow healing to take place. Not only for the other, but for ourselves at the same time. As being one, we can't heal another without healing ourselves. Healing takes place on a level of "one".

Namaste'