Those who "think" incessantly, without control, who are ruled by the chaos created by the mind are technically "addicts". Now realizing this, I guess I can list another addiction that I have released, which proved to be the ultimate, the hardest and the one that about beat me.
But then, I found "awareness". My awakening began and I became an "observer" of my thoughts and realized how unreasonable and dysfunctional they really were. Worst part was that they were all someone else's thoughts that I had acquired or learned and they weren't even mine! So then I started to "see" how much chaos they really did create. Continual conflict, confusion, but the "worst" was the "suffering". Thoughts were never-ending! I could not sleep, I couldn't concentrate or pay attention. They were exhausting. Always telling me how I couldn't do this or that, how something "wrong" had happened, how someone needed to be blamed for a wrong done me, how I needed to be perfect, or to do something different than what I felt inside. This created physical manifestations of illnesses all over my body! Unbelievable. All because of thoughts.
So, I decided (probably at rock bottom, I am sure) enough was enough. No more. I took responsibility for my thoughts. I gave trust to my guidance and spirit and I started to let go. This was when the hard part started. As a professional control freak, letting go was just a crazy concept. But, over time, it got easier. I remained aware, growing more & more aware with every passing moment. Every tenseness, every "need" to do anything had to go. Being present, being in flow, and allowing. Man, what a crazy idea... but crazy is pretty much where we have to be to "get it".
Now, everytime I see "thoughts" rear their ugly heads, I switch. I close my eyes and go into my heart. My thoughts don't have a chance anymore!
Kick the habit, break the addiction. Release yourself.
Join Thought-a-holics Anonymous.
You can do it, we can help!
In love beautiful souls.