
Epiphanies will start to "pop" into your head more. Some will make you giggle, others will be AMAZING ah-ha moments that cause you to say "wow"! You have highs and you have extreme lows. Nothing makes sense anymore.
You start to evaluate everything. Why am I doing this (job, relationship, etc.) You may review your life and look back at everything that "got you here". You FEEL you want something more. What drives you starts to change. You may even question your own mind.
Feelings of lack, addictions, fears and bouts of anger may start to surface. You had no idea those were there and may even "lose control" and the ability to defend yourself against these feelings as they seem to rule. You may have a desire within to not experience those things, but the experience is important for the purpose of release. Every victim mentality that was buried deep within may rear it's ugly head. You even may have a hard time "liking" yourself very much. Saying I love you to your reflection can be extremely painful.
But, there is a certain something within that keeps you going. There is this "new" self trying to emerge. This new self is not a victim. It starts to see how everything has transpired to get you here. You desire to be creative and do those things that exist deep within your heart, usually something you did in the early days, before "life" got serious. Before you had to "think" for a living and let go of that "free spirit" within that enjoyed life.
The intellectual mind will want to start "nit-picking" things apart. This is a necessary process, but only in the beginning, Later, the need to know will have to fall away. For now, who/what/when/where/why/how will create obsessiveness from time to time. It may dominate here & there. Learning to focus and step out of this loop is imperative. The logical mind is what got us all "there"!
There is no apparent, reasonable explanation for anything you are experiencing. Many shift to a spiritual conquest to find their answers. It is on this journey that one allows their self to step out of the "box" created by the logical mind. Our answers no longer lie outside of ourselves. Everything as we once new it no longer exists. Our reality is yanked out from under our feet, and our security mechanisms kick in trying to protect us. All of this too must fall away.
Weight issues, sleep issue, sweats, change in everything, body issues all start to run rampant. We are living in a world that appears "berzerk" and trying to remain sane all at the same time. This is the beginning of enlightenment. This is the beginning of the awakening of your soul. THIS is why you are here. Everything you seek is within.